Endless Sleepless Night

Time flies… ooh… sound like everyone like to use these word when they slack of updating the blog. Ohh well… I am, actually. I dunno what I have been doing lately. I know that things has change for the past few month. Partly because the church building, I actually felt that I lost my home.

I have been busy with many stuff lately even since the church caught on fire. We are now at Brisbane Convention and Exhibition Centre, which gave us bigger opportunity to fit more people in it. I would say since the event, our church attendee has grow about 200 more, which statistically growth of 35%. I am glad (in the good way) that the fire happened. You know what I mean… don’t you!

Its because we are now at BCEC at least till end of the year, there are many usually church activity and ministry has changed. We are currently restructure the whole ministry and activities. Well… I am trying to tell you that I am still surviving after all these meeting and that meeting.

The 2nd semester of my bible college commenced last month and since then I have not really sit down and really study yet. I felt so guilty for not being obedience. I don’t how to explain, and I don’t know who to blame. I was so caught with meetings and just thinking about change the structure so that we can be excellent. But instead of excellent, I actually stuffed my friendship, I felt so far away from my close friend (someone who always be with me and encourage me, someone who care my general well being, I missed those…) I have less time for space to breath, accumulating the numbers of sleepless night and now every time I just need 2 minute on bed; I am totally gone to my dream world.

Don’t get me wrong that this is the result of ministry… I am just don’t know how to have my time management, or may be this is just a season of changing.

I am in the middle of stress now… many thing has gone not according to plan. I am disappointed… but I am keep pressing on.

I love my church and I love my friends, they are my soul and spirit, where I find joy and happiness that nothing else could replace.

Just came from resort weekend… and there was a session held in panel style. I still remember there was a question that I really wanted to ask, but because lack of time, I wasn’t given a chance. Anyway, may be I should just share here and who knows that you may answer this question.

“I would like to know how we (as working adult work in circular world and not minister) could take time off from ministry and work and at the same time not lost the passion. Remember that we serve actively at ministry during our free time and every time we have break… always time to catch up our sleep. What is your advice to someone like this, to do or what to do during break, so that when we come out from break, we are fresh and ready to do more work…?”

I leave that for you…